hesitant 4 February 2006
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bible study starts on tuesday… i’m terrified that i will let people down, let myself down, let God down. that i won’t be as committed or as disciplined as i want to be, as i feel i need to be. sure a few weeks is easy, but six months?
i quit smoking january 1st. after three weeks, i knew i could do it for good. not that it’s easy. but i know i can do it. so that was the beginning of “project me 2006″. last month was quit smoking, start praying. my treat… video ipod.
this month, it’s be more assertive and read the bible. notice a physical and spiritual goal per month. silly, i know, but this is a format that has worked for me. treat… new hair.
shhh… don’t tell anybody, but i think that rock climbing certification and racquetball, and small community core group for march. treat? i don’t know… climbing gear, sewing machine? dunno. we’ll see.
but for now, i’ll give these fears five seconds. then i have some work to do.
